FINALLY! I have finally passed 88 kilos! I've been gaining and losing the same two kilos over and over again, but today, glory of glories, I am down to 87!
Weight: 87.4 kg (-1 kg)/192.7 lbs (-2.2 lbs)
BMI: 38.8
Weight loss since Sept 16, 2023: 6.1 kg/13.4 lbs
This weeks cheat meal was nine nuggets from McD with curry sauce and an apple pie. I cannot fathom how I could eat 20 pieces on my own, back when. Nine almost floored me!
I've already grown tired of wax beans, so I decided to eat mixed beans instead with my chicken; borlotti beans (a.k.a. cranberry beans), kidney beans and cannellini beans (a.k.a. white kidney beans), all fairly high in protein. I also changed my macros at MFP to a higher protein number and a lower carb limit.
I've been weighing myself daily instead of just Saturdays, and lately Wednesdays to check that I'm on the right track. I don't know if I'll keep doing that, because the last time I weighed myself everyday it spiraled out of control, but it is so satisfying seeing the graph slope downwards - until it doesn't. Then I usually binge because fuck it, I'm always gonna be fat so who cares, and down that road madness lies.
I stopped taking Olanzapine/Zyprexa without consulting my doctor. What I feared most wasn't the paranoia or the hallucinations, but that my sleep would get even worse, which is exactly what happened, so I'm back on it again. It truly is the Devil's crack cocaine though and I am tired of being ravenous with hunger every night after I've taken it, but being awake just makes me bored and then I eat because I have zero self-control when I'm bored, so it is what it is. I was on a fairly low dose, 10mg, but started taking 20 mg. I need my sleep.