Bye, bye 2023

 I lost 100 grams! Wohoo! But, seriously, I'm just glad I didn't gain because I had TWO Christmas dinners; one pre Xmas and one on Xmas Eve. The diet gods were kind. I also had 2+2 hoppy IPAs, home-brewed by my BIL. I rarely drink, maybe once or twice a year, so I got a bit drunk, but not blotto. It was fun.

Weight: 88.1 kg/194.2 lbs

BMI: 39.2

Weight loss since Sept 16: 5.4 kg/11.9 lbs

So, the last day of 2023. What a year. I hope 2024 will be better; hopefully the year when I reach my target weight and get debt free. The year when I exchange my pink bracelet for a red one. I know it's sick to wish for Ana, but I am sick of being fat, I am sick of eating. I want to be so skinny that I rot from view.

I saw the crush on the bus as we were getting off yesterday. I almost swallowed my tongue and didn't dare say Hi. I haven't seen him since last spring; I thought he left town. But I don't want him, not in that way. I want what we had, which was fun and easygoing banter. I still identify as asexual and have no desire to change that.

I cut my hair for the first time in four and a half years. It was down to my waist, now I have an undercut and a bit longer on top. It feels wonderful to get rid of all that hair. I stopped cutting it when I broke up with my ex, so now it feels as if I have gone past the grief onto the other side. I feel free.

This is the pic I showed my stylist and what I got, except I have henna red hair

Just for fun I calculated how much I would weigh in a year's time if I eat 1000 calories a day. One calculator said 58 kilos, the other 50. Either way, I would be very happy being under 60 by next Christmas. I'm not greedy.