Starting over

 I fell off the waggon HARD. Pretty much everything important in my life is currently going to hell. I owe so many people so much money I'll never get out of debt unless I win the lottery or something. I have zero stress tolerance and when things go awry I make a run for the only comfort I know: food.

Weight: 93 kg/205 lbs

BMI: 41.3

Weight loss since Sept 16: 0.5 kg/1.1 lbs

I had to take a break with my stackers. You should go eight weeks on, two weeks off, but I only took one week off because I don't dare wait any longer. I've eaten so much junk food since my last post it's not even funny.

Is it worth it?

 I am in utter chock. I shouldn't be, because I didn't sleep for three nights in a row (my medication order was fucked up, didn't have sleeping tablets for three nights straight), but THIS?! I want to cry.

Weight: 90.5 kg (+ 0.7 kg)/199.5 lbs (+3.7 lbs)

BMI: 40.2

Weight loss since Sept 16: 4 kg/6.7 lbs

There are no words.

Another milestone!

 I am finally under 89 kilos! I had to weigh myself twice because I didn't believe it the first time. 

Weight: 88.8 kg (-0.8 kg)/195.8 lbs (-1.7 lbs)

BMI: 39.5

Weight loss since Sept 16: 4.7 kg/10.3 lbs

I haven't weighed under 89 in years. I've lost over 27 kilos (just under 60 lbs) since my highest, at 116 kg (255.7 lbs) with a BMI of 51.6, which is class III obesity/morbid obesity. Now I'm down to class II obesity, barely.

I ate over 1300 kcal three days this past week, but kept under 1100 kcal the other days. I was awake one night, but managed to get a few hours sleep in the morning.

My cheat meal yesterday was tacos: three hard shells, vegan mince, cheese, taco sauce, creme fraiche light, and veggies; totaling under 450 kcal. This was the second time I've had tacos in the four years since I broke up with my ex, because as much as I love tacos, I hate chopping veggies. That was his job.